Fraud

I’m such a fraud. I went through and read some of my old blog post and realized that I am just a big fraud. I write about grand ideas and notions but never follow through with a single thing. Why?

Well, I think that I have a similar problem to most people out there. I get distracted by life. My previous post was all about getting healthy and running Spartan Races. Since that post was written last year I have worked out all of 2 times. Just a few days after that post was written I lost my job. I had already signed up for 2 other spartan races for the year and was prepared to have the most healthy year of my life. A little more than a year later I can say that I was unable to run either of my other two races and did not stay on course with my health goals.

There are actually a lot of goals that I didn’t stick to last year. I was not less than 210 lbs by December 31. I did not have my level 1 CrossFit instructors license. And, the most disappointing was that I had somewhere along the way forgotten what my real responsibility in this life was: To love and steward my family in a way that honors God.

I got completely turned around. I was living selfishly and wasn’t concerned with fixing it.

But then, almost a year to the date of being laid off from my other job, I was fired. It happened out of nowhere. On Tuesday and Wednesday I was being complimented for my performance. On Friday I was fired, without reason. Talk about a wrench in my plans. I was so confused, and hurt, and lost. I had drifted so far away from where I wanted to be that I was shaken deeply by this change. I had no where to turn but to the Cross and to my family. And that’s what I did.

That was more than a month ago. I am still unemployed, but man am I happy. I began to work on me, on my interactions with my wife and kids, on my perception of what others thinks of me, on being better. When I say better, I mean that I think and react and see others out of a place of love. I want to see my relationships as opportunities to love people the way Christ loves me: without expectation, without wanting something in return, without judgement.

I have a long way to go but I will get there. It will not be easy, and it will not be quick, but Jesus says that I must change and so I will do my part in transforming my lifestyle to bring praise to the Lord.

If you are still reading I would like to recommend some books that are really stirring my spirit as of late:

Scary Close by Donald Miller

Interrupted by Jen Hatmaker

Loving Our Kids on Purpose by Danny Silk

Spartan Spirit

The few people that read this may not know me on a personal level, and those that do mostly know me through social media. What you may not know is that I have a new addiction. I ran my first ever Spartan Race on Feb 15, 2014. It was a 4 mile obstacle race the wound its way through Raymond James Stadium (Tampa Bay Bucs) and right through the heart of this wanna be warrior. For years I have wanted to be more manly. I’ve want to be an “Outdoors-ie” kind of guy. But, it’s always been easier to watch someone else do it. Not anymore. I had an absolute blast training and competing in the Tampa Spartan Sprint. Well, maybe competing isn’t the right word, let’s change that to finishing. Either way, it was something that I want to do again and again. I have been more active in the first 2 months of this year than I have in the previous 31 years, and I’m ok with that. During my 6 months of training I managed to loose 20 lbs, but not a penny more. Reflecting back on the last 6 months I’ve realized that I should be down 40+ lbs. But, no matter how hard you workout or train, the weight will stick around if the diet isn’t right.

As I seriously began contemplating what I can give up for lent to help kickstart a healthier lifestyle, I realized that this Diet vs Exercise dilemma has a very interesting parallel in my life, and maybe in yours.

I’d like to think that I have a Warrior’s Spirit within me, a Spartan Spirit. I would consider myself a strong Christian. I would also consider myself a strong person, physically. But am I fit? The answer is a resounding no. My christian health, much like my workout schedule, is fairly consistent. I go to church regularly. I attend a small group. I even lead a small group. I’m also a lead volunteer for the youth group. But even though I have all of that going for me I’m still not Fit. Much like a workout routine needs a strong diet to back it up, I need the bread of life to sustain me. If I’m not digging into the Word of God on a regular basis then my diet is week at best. I have no nourishment. It’s not a “30 day cleanse” when you go an entire month without reading scripture. Scripture should be my daily Fish oils, or protein shake. And, just like supplements, if I miss a day then it’s that much harder to get back into the routine.

I eat everyday. I workout 3-5 times a week. How much more full would my life be if I read Scripture everyday? If I spent time helping someone, or doing Kingdom work of some sort at least 3-5 times a week?

Just like when my diet gets out of control and the pounds come back and the energy fades, the same happens when my spiritual diet goes awry. I don’t model God’s grace like I should. I don’t love my wife like I should. I don’t treat others with the respect they deserve. I get lazy and complacent in every aspect when I stop caring about what I put in. If this is you, please take heart that you are not alone. And please don’t give up. I want to challenge myself and anyone who reads this to a 30 day challenge (those seem to be popular in the fitness world, 30 day juice fast, whole 30, etc…). I will be setting alarms, creating reminders, whatever I need to do to make sure that I get into scripture at least once a day for the next 30 days. Please join me. Let me know through a post where you are going to camp out for the next 30 days. I am going to start in Proverbs. It is my favorite, and I can really dig into what is being taught. Let’s do this!